{"id":19789,"date":"2021-02-04T10:05:15","date_gmt":"2021-02-04T15:05:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/?p=19789"},"modified":"2021-02-04T10:18:09","modified_gmt":"2021-02-04T15:18:09","slug":"lean-not-on-your-own-understanding","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/?p=19789","title":{"rendered":"Lean Not on Your Own Understanding"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/PLamtM9Qeds\" allowfullscreen=\"\"><\/iframe><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<p><em>If you understand it, it is not God.&nbsp;<\/em>\u2014St. Augustine, Sermon 117 on John 1:1<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>God is Mystery and not any \u201cthing\u201d we can wrap our little brains around. Brian McLaren shares how he realized this during a time of deep doubt and perplexity in his life:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>A verse I had memorized in my childhood came to mind: \u201cTrust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding\u201d [Proverbs 3:5]. For the first time, it dawned on me: there\u2019s a difference between doubting God and doubting my understanding of God, just as there\u2019s a difference between trusting God and trusting my understanding of God. Would I be able to doubt my understanding of God while simultaneously trusting God beyond my understanding? In a strange way, that question for the first time in my life allowed me to see God as a mystery distinct from my concepts of God. [1]&nbsp;<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>It\u2019s wonderful to be blessed with such a clarifying insight! Yet, it sometimes takes a longer and more painful \u201cdark night of the soul\u201d<\/em>&nbsp;<em>to free us from our inadequate concepts of God. Author and Episcopal priest Barbara Brown Taylor, another good friend, explains:<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>[John of the Cross] says that the dark night is God\u2019s best gift to you, intended for your liberation. It is about freeing you from your ideas about God, your fears about God, your attachment to all the benefits you have been promised for believing in God, your devotion to the spiritual practices that are supposed to make you feel closer to God, your dedication to doing and believing all the right things about God, your positive and negative evaluations of yourself as a believer in God, your tactics for manipulating God, and your sure cures for doubting God.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>All of these are substitutes for God, John says. They all get in God\u2019s way. . . .<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Yet it would be a mistake to attach the promise of&nbsp;<em>more&nbsp;<\/em>spiritual benefits to a night that is designed to obliterate them. Those who have come through dark nights of their own, not just once but over and over again, often cannot find the words to say why they would not trade those nights for anything.&nbsp;<em>Yes, they were nights of great loss. Yes, the soul suffered from fearful subtraction. Yes, a great emptiness opened up where I had stored all my spiritual treasures, and yet.&nbsp;<\/em>And yet what?&nbsp;<em>And yet what remained when everything else was gone was more real than anything I could have imagined. I was no longer apart from what I sought; I was part of it, or in it. I\u2019m sorry I can\u2019t say it any better than that. There was no place else I wanted to be.&nbsp;<\/em>[2] (italics in original)<br><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p><em>Richard again: This description of the \u201cdark night\u201d as a gift can be misleading because such times of unknowing are almost always endured more than enjoyed. However, the experience of mystery, paradox, and not-knowing brings to our lives a rich and unexpected grounding.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" width=\"500\" height=\"239\" src=\"http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/image-500x239.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-19792\" srcset=\"http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/image-500x239.png 500w, http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/image-300x143.png 300w, http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/image-768x366.png 768w, http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/02\/image.png 2046w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image\"><img alt=\"\"\/><\/figure>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If you understand it, it is not God.&nbsp;\u2014St. Augustine, Sermon 117 on John 1:1 God is Mystery and not any \u201cthing\u201d we can wrap our little brains around. 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