{"id":20435,"date":"2021-08-30T15:21:29","date_gmt":"2021-08-30T19:21:29","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/?p=20435"},"modified":"2021-08-30T15:32:23","modified_gmt":"2021-08-30T19:32:23","slug":"20435","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/co2mannatoday.com\/?p=20435","title":{"rendered":""},"content":{"rendered":"\n<figure><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/pr_MUoH4VJc\" allowfullscreen=\"\"><\/iframe><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">A Journey toward Greater Love<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>At the end of September, the CAC will host the seventh and final CONSPIRE conference. We are calling it Me\/Us\/The World: Living Inside God\u2019s Great Story. Our own individual stories connect us to the stories of our larger communities and to God\u2019s Great Story\u2014which includes everybody and all of creation. This week in the Daily Meditations, we will be sharing a \u201cMe\u201d story from each of our faculty members. We hope it reveals how, despite our many differences, these stories are all connected: mine, yours, ours, the world\u2019s, and God\u2019s.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>It\u2019s probably not hard to believe that I started teaching early, around the age of six or seven. My parents told me this years later. I would gather my siblings and neighborhood friends and have them sit on a bench in the backyard. I would hold my penny catechism upside down since I couldn\u2019t read yet, and I would pretend to teach \u201cabout Jesus.\u201d I must have been a weird little kid, but I was happy too! According to my mother, I would run around screaming with excitement and she would admonish me, \u201cIf you want to scream, go outside,\u201d so I would. At some point, that spontaneous joy turned into seriousness. I became committed to being the good boy, the nice boy.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I attended Catholic school where the reward\/punishment, perfection\/achievement system was used to maintained order. The God I was presented with was no unconditional lover, but that was the whole Catholic world in the 1950s. Reality was shaped by a God who is punitive. It made for conformity and very little disruption since we were all agreeing together to abide by the same laws.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I have often been asked, \u201cSo, how did you learn how to love in a more unconditional way?\u201d While I\u2019m not sure that I have, any progress I have made has come simply by meeting people who were themselves loving, and then learning the contemplative mind. I was often surrounded by loving people, but I didn\u2019t know how to be like them. By willpower many of us tried to force ourselves to be loving, as if to say: \u201cObey the law and you will go to heaven.\u201d But when you are forcing yourself to do the loving thing, it doesn\u2019t feel like love to other people. They can sense the difference.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Until I went to seminary, no one had taught me how to clean the lens of my awareness and perception. Studying the philosophy of Franciscan John Duns Scotus (1266\u20131308) for four years had a profound effect on me. Duns Scotus taught (admittedly in rarefied Latin) that good theology maintains two freedoms: it keeps people free for God and it keeps God free for people. The harder task is actually the second, because what religion tends to do is tell God whom God can love and whom God is not allowed to love. In most church theology and morality, God is very unfree.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I know now that love cannot happen except in the realm of freedom.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading\">Absolute Grace and Acceptance<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p>After high school seminary, my [Richard\u2019s] next step toward becoming a Franciscan was a year-long novitiate in Cincinnati, Ohio. In those days we knelt a lot. I had calluses on my knees because we knelt so much. It was not modern spirituality, but it was a wonderful container that kept me in myself, in my inner world, in the silence. Most of the day we had to keep quiet. This was a medieval novitiate still based on asceticism. Before Vatican II, the Catholic Church was still law-based, disconnected from experience, and not incarnational. It all circled around priests and their ministrations.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I was nineteen years old and trying to be the most fervent student possible: on time, clean, reverent, and respectful, like a Boy Scout. \u201cYes, Father. No, Father. Whatever you want, Father.\u201d I\u2019d had such a good father, and I knew how to be a good son. I didn\u2019t have the usual opposition toward authority figures, but I was still going crazy with trying to be perfect. Fortunately, over time, I discovered it was&nbsp;<em>my<\/em>&nbsp;definition of perfection, not God\u2019s, so I learned not to take it too seriously. Everyone creates their own definition of perfection that they try to live up to, and then they experience the illusion that they\u2019re either perfectly wonderful or completely inadequate.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Sometime in the middle of that year, I was kneeling in the choir in the Franciscan community\u2019s novitiate house on Colerain Avenue. Suddenly, I felt chains fly in all directions. The Scripture that I had read that day was Philippians 3:7\u00ad\u20139: \u201cWhat I once considered an asset, now I consider a liability. The law that I thought was going to save me, now is my curse\u201d (my paraphrase). Not coincidentally, I had just read the autobiography of Th\u00e9r\u00e8se of Lisieux. She can change anybody.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>Suddenly, I knew that God\u2019s love did not depend on me following all these laws and mandates or being worthy. I knew I wasn\u2019t worthy, and yet here I was experiencing absolute grace and absolute acceptance. The whole system I\u2019d grown up with had implied that God will love us&nbsp;<em>if<\/em>&nbsp;we change. That day I realized&nbsp;<em>God\u2019s love<\/em>&nbsp;<em>enables and energizes us to change.<\/em><\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>I already had that boyhood secret discovered gratuitously in front of the Christmas tree: where I felt I had been taken over to another world, which was really this world as it truly is. I\u2019d realized, \u201cMy God, this is inside of what everybody is living, and they don\u2019t see it!\u201d Now once again, I somehow knew that I was good, God is good, life is good. And I didn\u2019t have to achieve that goodness by any performance whatsoever. At that point, I was\u2014like a good Lutheran\u2014saved by grace. Grace was everything!<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>In one moment, I got the Gospel! And I knew it had nothing to do with legalism, priestcraft, or punitiveness. I hadn\u2019t studied theology yet, so I had no intellectual foundation by which to justify it, but I just knew that everything was grace. 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